when a leave drops, some thinks because it's lacking of nutrients, but do we ever think the rough winds could have blown them down?

sometimes, i stopped by,
to look at my past,
but i realised everything was funny to be thought of,
recalling the times, it might be a sad and pathetic memories
hence, i shutted my eyes,
took a big grasp of air into my lungs again,
feeling the pace of my hearts,
i am back to the reality!

i realised that whenever some bad incidents happened
it seems to be the end of the world,
well instead of feeling sweat with it,
i would accept it with my generous arms,
i treid to change what i didnt want it to be,
even if it doesnt turn out well,
i am still glad i tried my best

i have faith in everyone i love,
i mean, i should, have it.
but still it'll never work if things go one way,
again. i closed my eyes, stopped the thoughts from flowing through my mind,
to keep my spirit down again,
back to my starting point,
continue what makes me feel better again
i might not have the chance to think of the consequenes,
since i choosed the path that i want,
i move on with my wish.

althought it will never turn out well,
but still i couldnt twist the clock back to twelve,
and choose the second path.
hence, i learnt a new lesson.
i appreciate what happens in life, always!

TRIALS VS REAL

thanks to the happenings that happened for this week,
today.. i had a great talk with pn lim, my english teacher,
i mean WE had a great talk,
since we always cant understand what our bio teacher is teaching,
we decided to run out from the class,
standing at the corridor,
while listening to the comments she gave on our exam essay!

this time, i realised, i choosed the wrong question,
i always write something on recount,
dont know why, those questions will eventually ignite my inner feelings,
like the last exam piece, my best friend
somehow i am clear with what i want, i know what does that mean,
because i have had a best friend in life,
no matter who i write, or how i write it,
the feelings will surely strike the reader's emotions

this time, discipline is the key to success? do u agree?
certainly i have discipline in me,
but i am not successful yet, so i might not have the stand to support my points well
i wrote this in chinese for last essay! damn it.
i can still remember what marks i got, and it was totally a disappointment,
but i still like english, there's no line to limit my style of writing.

pn lim, through her thoughts i learnt a lot!
she said i am good in argumentative kinds,
so i am gonna read up more and more bulletins on people opinions,
seeing things from differents perspectives,
at least , i am proud that i convinced her, by manipulating my points,
through bluffalogy!
feel embarrass to admit it, but still i am glad it happened before the real one comes!

i got back all my papers already, well not satisfying enough!
but thanks to all my buddies, we'll work hard for the time left.
let's turn it to be possible all the times,
i am in love in my class, LOL
we joined all the tables together, so it's easier to crap and discuss questions!

no doubt, i am under high pressure lately,
i realised i am not well prepared,
but still i am really thankful,
like what pn.lim says "make things happened worst before the real spm!"

i am gonna make sure by spm comes, i get to understand which kind of questions suit me the best!!

haha. randomly,
yesterday was a great day!
i went mamak after school with my classmates,
as usual, i like the atmosphere!
wahaha.. out class has lots of JUN lately!
jun yi, jia jiun and jian jun!

oh well! i have released my feelings! time to work hard. ciaos!

this will never be the way

i am starting to get SICK of everything
i should have listened to the advices, do something prompt enough to make me feel better =)

things will never work one way as i know,
duration and the time how long we have been friends,
will never be a reason for us to keep holding on the bonds

sometimes, i just couldn't take it when the cares are even worse than how an ordinary PASSER-BY
could have given!
i am not comparing, but it's something that i have mentioned endless times =(
i am writing this not because i am piss, i am sick of it! and i know for the time being,
it's really gonna be a time for me to look into everything, and i hope what i thought before was wrong!

appreciation is something that we need and MUST possess
no matter what we are given everyday!
i appreciate u BUT.... think carefully,
do u actually care for ur friend when he needs?

tolerance is also another important part!
i have tried, but did u?
and if u mean it, sorry could have made u be more oblivious of the mistakes,
not repeating the same thing OVER and Over AGAIN
it's already been years! but look at it, everytime when i talk to u!
see how much u really thought through my thoughts!
pause at that moment when i tell u something next time, and observe ur reactions! and think
if this is what u get from someone, will u be happy?

i hope i can keep this best friend after my high school!
but if things remain this way, i dont think i can tolerate anymore...
if u ever know who u are, kindly just talk over to me if u really wanna know what i am thinking!
there's a reason why i am posting here! not because i wanna open a press conference and tell everyone in the world that how much i dislike,
because i know i am true enough when i am facing this computer,
and u will surely read what i typed!

but if u dont, well fine. we will never work out things anymore!


*it drives me a lot a lot of confidence to type this post,
as everyone knows i am soft-hearted.
but this time, head-ache has brought me some confident!

i hope things will get better!

Chicken Soup

phew! finally i have the mood to blog about my days
first of all, i gonna thank to all the readers for paying attention on my blog
thanks for sending sms to me asking how i feel sometimes.
u are honoured and i love u all!

last night, out of the blue, i was missing this best friend a lot
ESTHER TAN HUI
i called her and thank godness! she is free.
we shared the sometime chatting about the past
how we manage to work together for PMR

i really miss the time so so much
i can still remember, we will study together most of the mornings!
around 7 am. and we go to school together
there's a petrol kiosk near her house.
we went there to get some snacks sometimes!!

in school, she was just sitting infront of me
everything was so perfect! TOO FABOLOUS!
we will de-stress and pressurise each other...

well all the moments and past atmospheres began to on AIR again
we smsed each other, while studying
and everything started again!
then i glanced at my table, it was the first picture i took with her in school!!
during form 3, though the colour wasnt that nice anymore.
but both of us have the same photo underneath our desks.

such a coincident, she said i miss u a lot in the photo!
my heaart was MELTED

then i started flipping my calender.
i realised i have exactly 2 months left for spm!
and the worst part is i have only 1 more month to graduate!
hence, all the bad and leaving scenes started to appear.

i couldnt calm myself, as i know it's gonna be a VERY HUGE drastic change in my life
another transition again!
well, i still force myself to concentrate on my studies!
=( i did it. until i read this chicken soup!

some quotes i gonna share
Happiness is a perfume u cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on urself. George Bernard Shaw

When it gets dark enough you can see the stars Lee Salk

Be generous with ur joy! give away what you most want. Be generous with ur insights and delights. Instead of fearing that they're going to slip away and holding on them, SHARE them.. Pema Chodron


to my best friends, appreciate the time left.
dont leave any regrets after high school life
and i gonna admit that i have had a conclusion on my friends list!
this is not what i wanted, but the fact will never be polite to me =)
please.. we gonna treasure every moment with everyone,EVERYBODY will be equally important to US
time will never falls backwards for us.

Happy birthday To HuiShi

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST HUI SHI!

thanks for being there for me , always
thanks for being a guidance on my studies and also my feelings' counsellor

have a safe trip to DUBAI,enjoy ur time over there!!

sorry for not attending ur birthday party!
hope u dont mind =)
wish u all the best in the future,
i will never forget the days u helped me!!!
good lucks for everything!!!

Orphan Day!

night scene! my studious look=x and my cute lamp =) and balcony romantic view
mine and daniel's drawings

my dream watches! french connection



long time never been to leisure mall =x



exam has come to an end.
these days, i am seriously exhausted =(
even i wanna wake up early in the morning
my body is totally not allowed.
let's just look at the pics to know more about me!

thanks esther and hui shi! had a great day

Yiruma

YIRUMA- my favourite pianist!

his musics never failed to calm my mind,
let me think positively,
accompany me through my stressful revision period
i have 8 albums of his!

HIGHLY recommended TO those who are about to lose his/her sanity due to stress loads XD
his musics can make u imagine how wonderful things and happenings could be
be positive everyone!