this will never be the way

i am starting to get SICK of everything
i should have listened to the advices, do something prompt enough to make me feel better =)

things will never work one way as i know,
duration and the time how long we have been friends,
will never be a reason for us to keep holding on the bonds

sometimes, i just couldn't take it when the cares are even worse than how an ordinary PASSER-BY
could have given!
i am not comparing, but it's something that i have mentioned endless times =(
i am writing this not because i am piss, i am sick of it! and i know for the time being,
it's really gonna be a time for me to look into everything, and i hope what i thought before was wrong!

appreciation is something that we need and MUST possess
no matter what we are given everyday!
i appreciate u BUT.... think carefully,
do u actually care for ur friend when he needs?

tolerance is also another important part!
i have tried, but did u?
and if u mean it, sorry could have made u be more oblivious of the mistakes,
not repeating the same thing OVER and Over AGAIN
it's already been years! but look at it, everytime when i talk to u!
see how much u really thought through my thoughts!
pause at that moment when i tell u something next time, and observe ur reactions! and think
if this is what u get from someone, will u be happy?

i hope i can keep this best friend after my high school!
but if things remain this way, i dont think i can tolerate anymore...
if u ever know who u are, kindly just talk over to me if u really wanna know what i am thinking!
there's a reason why i am posting here! not because i wanna open a press conference and tell everyone in the world that how much i dislike,
because i know i am true enough when i am facing this computer,
and u will surely read what i typed!

but if u dont, well fine. we will never work out things anymore!


*it drives me a lot a lot of confidence to type this post,
as everyone knows i am soft-hearted.
but this time, head-ache has brought me some confident!

i hope things will get better!